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Coco + James // Teaser from Americana Cinema on Vimeo.

This is maybe the worst professional wedding video I have ever seen. I mean the video itself is good technically speaking. But the actual video is ssoooo look at me I'm a beautiful bride in a great dress, and I am what this is all about. Stop Twirl look at the camera. What I love about the little wedding video montages that have been popping up everywhere is that you feel the couples love, and personality, excitement about their day, joy all of it. This was completely devoid of emotion to me. Coco Rocha (that's the bride) I don't know who you are but I do know you need to get over yourself. I couldn't tell if you were happy to be marrying that man, or if you were just happy to be posing for the camera.

It never ceased to amaze me

The way people just take advantage of situations. Even after it's been pointed out to them. Hey you know what, nice try, but that's not okay, or not appropriate. They just continue to take advantage. Is it that people think rules, or etiquette, or common courtesy doesn't apply to them?

What I really love about it though, is those are usually the first people to point out when someone else does the same thing they do. Or tell you it's not like they are asking for special treatment, when in fact that is exactly what they are doing. I want to scream hypocrit at them. I mean really? I makes me wonder, is it an act? Do they think they are fooling people, like if they act outraged, then people won't notice when they themselves do it. Are they really that self-righteous, or are they just not self aware at all?

This is important to my friend . . .

So it's important to me too.

Go see it.

Who's ready for this?

The book was great.
But honestly, the movie looks pretty spectacular.
Sign me up.

Silver lining?

Last night we got some bad news.

Something we had been hoping would work out.

Just didn't.

 We went upstairs to the roof to cry into our margaritas.

And walked into the most beautiful sunset.

Breathtaking oranges, reds and yellows right at our fingertips.

It was fantastic.

(The picture above doesn't even do it justice).

It was a moment I felt lucky to have.

Made me forget all the bad news from just a few moments before.

Right now that's all the hope that I have.

Even with plans and hopes and dreams -

sometimes things just don't work out.

There is no blame for it.

Just a fact of life.

But I think the greater lesson that I learned last night

was to just keep your head up and your eyes open.

Who knows what you will find?

Or what will find you.

What is it about some guys?

Normally I like to think I am cool, calmish, collected, level headed. But what is it about certain guys that just makes you lose your shit? You become all dramatic and over-reactive. All the sudden you are playing games, when you had retired from that sport years ago. Is it the fact that you can't get them to bend to your will? That they are not paying as much attention to you as the guy you could care less about? Is it the chase? And since when do you even like to chase? I like to be chased, not that that ever happens all that often. Is it about winning or controlling? And in the middle of all that can you even recognize if you like the person anymore. Has it just become about proving you can get this guy to like you/commit.

I may or may not be....

Sweating in my armpits right now, about a work situation that is completely out of my control. Which if goes in the opposite way than I need it to, could have some recupercutions if it doesn't make the deadline. Don't you hate when that happens.

PS: I may or may not be a control freak

PPS: Even if a person were not a control freak I believe they would be sweating in their armpits about this too. So there.